FINAL SNEAK PEEK - NOT SO SILENT NIGHT

Tomorrow, C. Monet returns with Not So Silent Night. Here’s one final sneak peek!

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“Don’t you even try closing this door after you’ve kept me up all night,” she said with her hand on her waist. The simple move gave me a good idea of how thin her waist was but how large her ass was. She was curvy but still regal. 
“Damn,” I muttered still eyeballing her short frame and lovely thick lips. My dick strained against the towel I had wrapped around my waist. I attempted to shut the door to hide my erection, but she stopped it again with her hand. 
“Excuse me?” she snapped.
“My bad, what did I do again?” I was in my own head while looking at her. I basked in open admiration, but she didn’t notice. She was too pissed off to catch it. I flashed a smile, but it didn’t work on her.
“Well Toby, let me first start off by saying you need to soundproof your apartment if you plan to have loud sinful sex all times of the night. I’ve been up since three listening to you and Laura fuck like rabbits. Second, I would like for you to be considerate of your neighbors and maybe bring the sluts back to your apartment at a decent hour. I work long hours and when I get home and crawl in my bed I would like to get at least eight hours of sleep. Can you handle that?” 
She was feisty and I liked it, but no one had ever handled me the way she was attempting to handle me. Was she jealous?  I heard her loud and clear, but I wouldn’t be Tobin Looney if I didn’t create waves and piss people off. It was a part of my charm and ladies say they hated but most secretly loved it. I wouldn’t mind having her in my unsound-proofed apartment listening to her scream the lyrics to my songs.
“Would you like to come in for a minute?” I winked and she turned her lip and nose up like I had offended her. A smile jumped on my face because I knew she was thinking about it. She shifted from one tiny foot to the other. “Come on, I don’t bite.” 
“You smoke crack, don’t you? It has to be crack. Or wait, is it that fakey? It has to be something, because maybe you didn’t hear me or maybe you just got me fucking confused with the whores you bring home. Why would you assume I’d like to come in and become another notch on your belt?” 
“I didn’t say that you did. So is that what you would like to do?” Her cinnamon colored skin showed hints of red as she blushed. I hoped she knew I would take good care of that pussy if she did step inside. I was so fired up I didn’t even need to catch my second wind. I knew the pussy was angry, pissed that it hadn’t been played with in a long time. I had her covered if she would just put away her morals for a few hours and let me have my way. 

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FINAL SNEAK PEEK - THE LOVE PLEDGE

Tomorrow, Iesha Bree makes her BLP debut with “The Love Pledge.”

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Sneak Peek

“So, have you gone on your first date yet?” she asked while kicking her heels off and picking up one of the loose basketballs rolling around. 

The look of her in that outfit made it far more difficult to listen to what she was saying, even as she did something as simple as picking up a basketball to throw it around. 

“I actually have my date for tonight according to Shauna, let me guess you already had yours?” I asked as she began bouncing the ball making her way over to the free throw line.  

“Yeah, and I made a complete fool of myself Brent. He was like one of those pretty boys who you could just see was a fuck boy from a mile away. So, I just got my shit together and left. Why can’t it just be simple, I get around the guy I’m supposed to be with, and everything just feels as natural as you and me,” she stated bending her knees and releasing the ball from her fingertips at the right moment. 

 The only sounds vibrating off the walls was the sound of the ball swishing through the hoop. The minute the ball went through the hoop she jumped up and down forgetting the conversation we were having over the excitement of making it. I shook my head because this was one of the things I loved about her, she could go from one subject to another without missing a step. 

“Damn, you didn’t take it easy on him, did you?” I asked with a laugh because Mercy had to be the bluntest person I knew.  

“You know I didn’t. I don’t have time to waste, especially after Parker’s no-good ass used up quite a good bit of it. I really don’t think it is that hard to love someone and be faithful especially when they are always there when you need them,” she responded walking back from the rim with the basketball in her hands. 

“I can agree with that, but not every man you come across will be able to recognize the beauty in a woman that was not made for him. Trust me Merc, the man who was made for you will treat you like the queen you are and recognize you as such. Stop worrying so much, how do you know the man you’re supposed to be with isn't right in front of you but you’re overlooking him? Just let it flow.” I walked up and placed my arm around her shoulder pulling her into my body.  

I felt her arms wrap around my waist, without another word silence was okay in this moment because I knew she understood. Even if she didn’t want to understand but I just hoped she realized real soon that the right man for her had been here all along. One of these days I'm going to tell her how I feel. I don’t know how many more of these damn date stories I can take.  

"I hear you Brent I will keep that in mind, but anyway, I don’t feel like being home today. Plus, my brothers have been coming over every damn day since that situation with Parker and the bar.  I don’t feel like being aggravated today, you down to see a movie? You know Aquamanis out and we have been waiting to see that movie.”  

“Of course, let me go home and get in the shower. You can come to my house if you would like. It won't take me too long to get ready,” I responded.

“Sounds good to me! I'll go by the movie theater to get our seats, then I will meet you at your house if you're not dressed already,” she added with a bright smile while walking over to put her shoes back on.

I needed all the prayer in the world to make it through all of these damn dates.

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FINAL SNEAK PEEK - CLAIMING YOUR LOVE

Tomorrow, Ivy Laika returns with Claiming Your Love!

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Zaire

Tempest could be mad all she wanted. She had the right to be. But it wasn’t going to end with her being mad at me at end of the night. Shit, the both of us wrecked Thanksgiving dinner. I’d be damned if she thought she was going to mess up my dessert. I had to make things right.

She stayed silent as a gray sedan pulled up in front of the house. It was thirty degrees out and she was wearing a pencil skirt with heels. She had to be freezing. Tempest had never been further north than Tallahassee. “Temp, get in my car and I’ll take you home.”

The car that pulled up didn’t move, I walked around to notice the bright pink Lyft sticker on the windshield. “Zaire, I am not getting in your car.”

She started walking towards the car and I followed right behind her. As soon as she opened the back passenger side door, I slammed it closed. That occurred three more times until the driver had enough.

“Hey lady! This is my car! You either get in or I leave.” The Lyft driver said with a goofy look on his pale white face.

I looked at him as if he had grown an extra head. He had to have lost his mind to think him talking to Temp like that was going to fly. “Nigga fuck your car. Don’t talk to my woman like that. I’ll come around and beat your ass.”

“Zaire, leave so I can take the Lyft back to my car.” Tempest had the nerve to say like she didn’t have any sense.

Growing impatient with her, I bent down and threw her over my right shoulder like the most precious rag doll. Tempest screamed, kicked, and punched me all the way to the car.

When that wasn’t working, she tried a more gentle approach. “Z put me down, please. Baby put me down.”

After opening the passenger side door of my SUV, I sat her in it. She tried to play like she was fighting me as I buckled her in. Before closing the door, I put the child lock on without her noticing. I closed the door and ran over to my side. Push starting my car, I pulled out of my dad’s driveway.

Tempest sat next to me sulking like a child. Her bottom lip poked out just as it always did whenever I didn’t give her her way. “My car is at Prime. Drop me off there please.”

“What’s your car doing at Prime?” I asked out of curiosity. Preston and Tempest had to have ridden together or else she wouldn’t have needed a Lyft.

“I had Preston pick me up from there because I didn’t want him to know where I live.”

As much as I wanted to know the truth about the two of them, I also didn’t want to know a damn thing.

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FINAL SNEAK PEEK - WHEN A GANGSTA CALLS

Tomorrow, Lex. C. returns with When A Gangsta Calls!

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Yes, I had a man. No, my feelings for him didn’t hold a flame to the passion I had burning inside for the one in front of me. Not in any capacity, and I was sure I’d feel inconsolably hollow as soon as I left Abram’s embrace. But if Devin so much as seemed to think twice about another woman, and I found out, all hell would break loose. What could be considered fair to another man, with one like this in your life? Abram was all consuming when it came to me. Fighting the fact that I felt like I was rightfully his… was all consuming. 

“Everything in me is pleading that I taste your lips, Ly’ Nia. I been waiting just about a solid decade to see if they feel as much as they look like mine.” I shook my head from left to right. At the same time, I knew I was in trouble. I somehow found myself bringing my lips to his and cupping his cheeks as his eyes made sure permission lied within mine. 

The moment our lips connected, I felt electric butterflies being unleashed inside my belly sending tickling jolts through me with every flap of their wings. His remaining hand on my hip gripped it tight and his hand on my neck held me close. Our tongues intertwined so erotically passionate that our blended concoction was sweet. So sweet I’d be sucking on my own lips long after the moment was gone.

I was sure somewhere in the galaxy, stars were aligning at our orgasmic summoning. His tongue was so soft, so tasty, with just a hint of mint - I didn’t want to let go of it. I sucked his bottom lip and tongue soft, and slow. We turned our heads to allow the rhythm of our lips and tongues to create a flow of their own as our touches turned to gropes of need and pleading desire. 

His hand began to roam my body, leaving its mark on every part that he was determined to own. Gripping my ass, he relayed his want almost beggingly. Pulling him closer by the base of his neck, my tongue told him secrets only I should know. 

You can have me... 

You can taste me…

You can bite me…lick me...

All of me…

I pulled back when his hand had hiked up my dress to brush his fingers against his…I mean, my yoni. I was not his! I was um…shit. What’s his name? Um…Devin. Yes. His.

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FINAL SNEAK PEEK - FINDING FOREVER

Tomorrow, Ivy Laika returns with Finding Freedom!

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Armour

Rise held her breath as I spoke. She didn’t break eye contact. Her lips parted and she asked a question that I would remember for forever. “Can you kiss me?”

To answer her, I took her bottom lip into my mouth, nibbling on it softly. Rise released the sweetest moan as our kiss intensified. Her lips tasted better than I had imagined. My hands began roaming down her body. The contrast of my rough hands against her silky skin was soothing.

Just as I was going to dip my fingers into her pond, Rise pulled away. “Can you taste me?”

“Put that p*y in my face.”

Her eyes widened indicating she wasn’t expecting that kind of response from me. It didn’t stop her from removing her black lace panties. My mouth watered awaiting her to straddle my face.

Rise stood up from the bed, planting one foot at each side of my head. I stared up at her bare mound. Her honied nectar began seeping from her.

Just as she reached my mouth I said, “I’m not tasting. I’m going to devour you.”

Quickly latching on to her pearl, I sucked on it as she squirmed. Using my hand, I gripped her waist to keep her still. I used my tongue to dip in and out of her treasure box. I had become an addict that quick.

It had been a while since I had been physical with a woman. From the tightness surrounding my tongue, I could tell it had been a while for her as well.

Latching back on the most sensitive part of her body, I continued my mission of bringing her to climax. Looking up, I witnessed Rise’s eyes rolling to the back of her head. The look of pleasure graced her beautiful face just as she began shaking. Sucking harder, I carried Rise to her final destination of ecstasy.

I lifted her up and laid her back on the bed. “Come back to me, mama.”

“Armour,” Rise muttered.

“Yes, mama?”

“I think I just fell in love with you.”

The conviction in her tone forced me to laugh. “Not yet. But I can guarantee you that before these six months are over, you will fall in love with me.” Whether she heard me or not, there was only truth in my words.

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FINA SNEAK PEEK - GIVE ME LOVE

Tomorrow, B. Love returns with Give Me Love

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Grady plopped down in his seat and released a heavy exhale. His eyes roamed his surroundings, landing last on the woman sitting directly in front of him. Her head was low, so he couldn’t see her face, but he definitely appreciated the way her cocoa brown skin looked against her cream-colored sweats and sweater. Tossing his attraction to the beautifully brown goddess out of his mind, he scooted down further in his seat so that he could rest his neck and back of his head against the chair.

His long frame caused his legs to extend quite a bit. Unintentionally, Grady grazed her foot with his. “My fault,” he almost whispered, not even bothering to open his eyes and look in her direction.

“That’s fine.”

The sound of her voice had him opening his eyes and looking in her direction. It was low and filled with that southern belle twang that told Grady she was from the south just like him. Head tilting, he looked over what he could see of her face, still unable to make out where he saw her from.

“Do I know you?” he checked, hoping she wouldn’t think he was trying to scoop her up with some lame ass pickup line.

She lifted her head completely from her phone and looked into his eyes. Her head was shaking as she smiled before she really looked at him, but when their eyes locked her smile dropped and the shaking stopped.

“Eh. Not really.” Quickly, she dropped her head and almost sank in her seat, piquing Grady’s interest even more.

“What do you mean not really? Either I know you or I don’t.”

“You don’t,” she answered quickly, nibbling on her bottom lip. It wasn’t until she looked to the side that Grady realized exactly where he knew her from.

“You hit my damn car!” he seethed, pointing his finger at her.

Her head dropped as a few people looked at their exchange. The last thing he needed was to be perceived as an angry black man in an airport, so Grady clenched his jaw and took in a deep breath as he lowered his arm.

“I’m sorry. I almost missed my turn, so I had to get in the left lane quickly. And I didn’t want to run the light because that one has cameras. I’m so sorry. They wouldn’t let me talk to you at the hospital, but I’m going to take care of all of your expenses. I’m so, so sorry,” she blurted, and Grady wondered if she’d even taken a breath.

As mad as he wanted to be with her, the sincerity in her voice and tears in her eyes melted a little of the stone around his heart. Not much – but a little. Relaxing his frame in his seat, Grady licked his lips and swallowed as he avoided her eyes. He couldn’t bear seeing those tears fall, so he looked away.

“It’s cool,” he mumbled, even though it wasn’t. But he was just about willing to say anything to keep her from crying more.

“No, it’s not. You have a whole split forehead. Those stiches… it’s going to leave a scar. I’m so, so sorry, sir. Is there anything I can get you now? How do you feel? Should you even be flying right now?”

“Should you?”

Her concern softened Grady’s heart even more. Even though she was being a bit dramatic. His forehead hadn’t necessarily split, but it did have a three-inch cut across it. It wasn’t a deep cut that caused him to lose too much blood, and he didn’t have a concussion. While he wasn’t sure if his doctor would approve of him flying with the pain medicine he’d been given, that was a chance he was willing to take.

He was set for another dose, but Grady didn’t plan to take anymore medicine until he was back in Memphis. He already hated flying, so he needed to be awake and alert. The only way that would change was if the throbbing in his head became unbearable.

“Would you like some juice? Or hard candy?” For a second, Grady couldn’t reply. Out of all the things she could have offered him, juice and hard candy certainly weren’t at the top of his list. His head tilted as his brows wrinkled, causing her to smile. “I’m sorry.” She chuckled. “That’s what my mother used to offer me when I was upset. Juice or hard candy. But I can get you something else.”

She turned and looked towards the food court, and it was when she turned back in Grady’s direction that he realized, “You stole my damn cab, too.”

His voice was low in his attempt to remain calm, but he knew she heard him. Her mouth opened partially as her shoulders caved. “Huh?”

“I said,” he almost yelled. Pausing, Grady inhaled a deep, calming breath. “You stole my cab earlier today, too. That was you, wasn’t it?”

Her face twisted up as she nodded. “Yes. That’s where I thought you knew me from. I didn’t even know you were the guy that hit me.”

“Hit you?” His deep voice quaked, causing her to jump. “I wouldn’t have hit your ass if you would have stayed in your fucking lane.”

Grady stood and snatched his bag from the floor. He needed to get away from her quickly, because if he didn’t, he was going to say or do something he would definitely regret.

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FINAL SNEAK PEEK - IGNITE MY SOUL

Hey, beauty! Tomorrow, Monica Walters returns with IGNITE MY SOUL and we have one final look inside before it goes live!

Warning - this sneak peek is vulgar, explicit and rated double R.

“Being your concubine isn’t a job, Jasper.”

He chuckled. “Oh, that’s a job, believe me. But I’m talking about managing my businesses… the liquor store and the barbershop. So, you gon’ bring yo’ fine ass to me or not?”

“Can I think about it?”

“Yep, but you gon’ say yes after I fuck this body up. You not gon’ wanna to leave.”

“Oh yeah?”

“Oh, you questioning that shit?”

I bit my bottom lip, knowing I was in trouble. He nodded repeatedly, then continued washing my body in silence. Jasper was a talker, but I noticed he didn’t say much leading up to sex. I grabbed his towel to wash him. He backed me against the wall and rested his hands on either side of my head. My breathing quickened as his brown eyes held my gaze. Slowly, I began washing him, touching his body in places I’d only imagined. As I squatted to wash his legs, his dick literally popped me in the head.

The smirk on his lips was contagious and I couldn’t help but laugh. After washing his legs, I came face to face with it. Wasting no time, I began washing it… massaging it… stroking it. Jasper’s eyes were closed as I washed it thoroughly. He backed up under the shower head and washed the soap off his body, while I remained squatted on the shower floor. I watched him lift his dick to make sure he’d gotten all the soap off, then he walked back over to me and laid his dick on my lips.

I played with it with my tongue for a minute, then slowly pulled it into my mouth, giving him all the heat, suction, and wetness, he could handle. He gripped my hair and gently stroked my mouth with his dick, taking control of me even in this moment. His eyes stared down at me the entire time as I looked up at him. This moment was so damned sensual, it was causing the moisture to pool at my eye ducts. Suddenly, he jerked me up and led me out of the shower. I didn’t know if I’d done something wrong or not. He threw me to the bed, wet and all, and dove between my legs, lapping at my shit like he couldn’t hold out any longer.

I was thanking God, because he was the one who’d incited that excruciatingly slow pace. He was sucking my clit so good; I was ready to cum already. It wasn’t like it would have been hard to do, since it had been so long. However, before I could cum, he stopped. I could have died a thousand times. Going to his nightstand, he grabbed a condom and strapped up. I could see he was smiling, because his cheeks were sticking out. He’d done that shit on purpose to punish me. When he came back to me, he brought his lips to my lower ones once again. Lifting my hips, I gave him all that shit. I needed to feel every movement of his lips and tongue. He wasn’t going to tease me and get away with it.

Gripping my hips, he pushed his face in deeper causing my orgasm to run up out of me with the quickness, my juices moisturizing his beard. As soon as my tremors had slowed down, he pushed inside of me, taking my damn breath away. “Jasper,” I whispered passionately.

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FINAL SNEAK PEEK - PLENTY OF FEELINGS

Hey! Tomorrow, Wynta Tyme returns with POF: Plenty of Feelings, a novella, and we have a sneak peek inside before it goes live!

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“I’m glad I can put that smile on your face,” he voiced. I started to fan myself dramatically and climbed onto the stool.

“Whew chile,” I stated. He laughed and finished putting up his groceries. I removed my jean jacket and hoodie to make myself more comfortable. My heart really started beating when he removed his hat and hoodie. That gray v neck looked as if it was painted on his body. I admired the way his muscles in his back flexed as he placed food in his cabinets. My eyes traveled down to his muscular ass. Lawd I was trying hard not to drool. In that moment I thought about what him and I could be. Reese was so damn thoughtful and sweet. He was masculine and shy in his own way. His mannerisms were out of this world. 

I sunk lower onto the island as I continued to admire him. “Dreka you wanna help me dice the vegetables?” Reese asked me.

“Yeah, sure,” I climbed down from the stool and stood next to him. Things went from hot to heated within a few minutes. Expertly, I chopped and diced the vegetables for our lunch as I dutty wined my hips to Mali Music’s latest song Loved by You. The lyrics washed over me and danced along my skin creating goosebumps in its wake.  Strong arms enveloped my waist as hints of sandalwood, oranges, and spice assaulted my nose. My head leaned back against his iron chest as I inhaled his fragrance hungrily like a fat man would devour steak and potatoes.  He held on to me tightly as our bodies did a slow grind to the soft lyrics. His large hands travelled between the meeting of my thighs and slowly my dress creeped higher and higher until he reached my soaking wet mound. 

The feel of someone shaking me pulled me away from my daydream. My very erotic daydream. “You with me?” Reese asked me concerned but there was a twinkle of humor in his eyes.

“Uhhh, yes. Where is your bathroom?” I asked sweetly.

“It’s down the hall and to the right,” he replied.

“Thank you,” I responded and clumsily climbed from the stool. I heard his deep and light chuckle as I walked down the hallway.

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FINAL SNEAK PEEK - SOMEONE SHE LOVED

Hey, beauty. Tomorrow, B. Love returns with Someone She Loved. We have one last look inside before it goes live!

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Tickled by their back and forth, Natalia chuckled as her sisters continued to argue. While Sofia swore this was a bad idea and that they at least needed to get the man’s license number and tag information, Aria was cheering Natalia on and telling her to have fun. Ignoring both, she inhaled another deep breath as she walked over to him. If executed correctly, he’d become her imaginary boyfriend that kept her sisters off her back while she figured out her next move.

Yes, it was clear that she needed to move on from Dominic, but in her own space and time and definitely in her own way.

Natalia’s steps picked up as he walked around the opposite end of the bar. Not wanting him to get out of the door before her sisters saw them engaging, she grabbed him by the wrist gently to gain his attention. As soon as she touched him, the spark that radiated from his skin to hers caused her to jerk her hand back. Holding her clutch with both hands, Natalia took a step back towards the bathroom as he looked down at her.

He wasn’t super tall, maybe five-eleven. With her five-inch heels on and five-two height, he was just a few inches taller. Enough for her head to tilt to look into his eyes. Enough for his eyes to lower as he bit down on his bottom lip, staring at her face as if he wanted to memorize every part of it.

Because he did.

Natalia was beautiful.

Her peanut butter skin was the same hue as his, except hers had a yellow undertone while his was red. She had a slim thick frame that was tattoo and blemish free. Small waist, wide hips, flat stomach, plump breasts and round ass. Natalia’s body was the one Aria wished she could have and Sofia wished she still had. It didn’t matter how much Aria ate, she maintained her slim frame. And Sofia’s weight had increased over the years, but it was nothing excessive.

When they went out – the sisters offered something to appease every man’s desire. Slim, slim thick, and thick.

Under turned coffee brown eyes were accentuated with false eyelashes that gave her an exotic look. Natalia’s pouty, medium sized lips became his obsession. He stared at them with no reservations as she struggled to get any words out.

“I’m sure this is going to sound odd, but my sisters won’t leave me alone until I make them think I have the capability to take a man home. If you have a wife or girlfriend that’s fine, if not, I’d appreciate it if you could play along.”

The left side of his mouth lifted into a smile, then the right. Extending his hand towards her, he said, “I’m Jones. You are?”

Natalia put her hand inside of his. “Natalia. Is that your last name?”

“Nah. My first.”

She chuckled quietly, noticing Jones hadn’t released her hand yet. “Your mother named you Jones?” He nodded. “Why?”

Licking his lips, Jones allowed his smile to fall slightly. “Because she said my pops had her Jonesin’.” Gently, he pulled her closer, removing the space that was between them. “I could have your pretty ass the same way… if you’d let me.”

Natalia’s mouth opened and closed.

Okay, so maybe Jones wasn’t the right pick.

Or maybe he was.

One thing was for sure, his possessive grip on her hand, gruff voice, masculine scent, handsome face, and charming demeanor could definitely have her spread eagle somewhere if she wasn’t careful. He was playing on just about all of her senses right now except taste… and the longer he stared at hers… the more Natalia wanted to see what his lips tasted like.

Her head shook as she smiled nervously. “I just need them to think we’re leaving together. That’s it. Can you walk me to my car?”

With one bob of his head, Jones released her hand and agreed with, “If you want to make this look believable, we should kiss or some shit.”

Natalia scoffed as she leaned against the bar and squeezed the back of her neck. She had a bad ass habit of smiling and laughing when she was nervous. To keep her sisters from seeing it, she turned more in Jones’ direction at the sound of them cooing behind her.

“That’s not neces–”

His body pressed into hers, trapping her against the bar. “You should’ve picked someone else,” he warned, tilting her head with his pointer finger. “Someone who hasn’t spent his entire night lusting after you.”

Eyes blinking rapidly, Natalia watched as Jones lowered his lips to hers. Her eyes closed as she inhaled deeply, preparing to feel his lips on hers. Jones placed a wet, soft, tender kiss on the side of her mouth, causing Natalia’s shoulders to cave as she sighed and released the breath she was holding.

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FINAL SNEAK PEEK - LOVE TRIFECTA

Hey, beauty. Tomorrow, Storm returns with Love Trifecta, and we have a look inside for you before it goes live!

Langston

 

  What the hell have I gotten myself into? I thought as I held the pictures in my hand. When I awoke this morning, I knew that something was going to go wrong. I could feel it. I wanted to revel in the moment of being tucked in the seclusion of my home for as long as I could. The feeling of uneasiness draped around me, cloaking me, confining me and begging me to stay inside my safety zone. My home. 

 I had never had this overbearing feeling of anxiety before. I knew the reason why, but I wanted to stay inside of my bubble of happiness. I had never had a real chance to be happy. At least not until I met Darren “Yatti” Collins. I used to be happy alone. Men were such complex creatures. They loved to have their cake and eat it too, leaving behind crumbs of evidence to be tried and convicted. Darren was supposed to have been different. But my friend intuition played a major part in why I was feeling these unfamiliar feelings. 

   When I stepped outside, the countdown of me knowing exactly who and what I was dealing with had begun. I couldn’t move forward without knowing. The lawyer inside of me had to have all the facts before I could defend the defendant. 

   Finally making it to my destination, I pulled my car over to the curb, in the darkest part of the street so that I couldn’t be seen. I sat watching the block, waiting for Darren to emerge. I had no business over in that area, but I had to know who the hell I had been sleeping next to for the past six or seven months. Minutes seemed like hours as Darren finally emerged from the old looking house on the left side of the street. He only walked a few feet before the guy came out behind him. I cracked my window just enough to see if I could hear what was being said, but that was a bust. I couldn’t hear shit.

After a few seconds the guy stepped up in Darren’s face. I then watched in horror as my fiancé pulled a gun from his waist and shot the man in his face. He then hurried off to his truck and pulled off wildly from the curb. My heart stilled in my chest. Vomit tickled my tonsils, seeing the man’s whole face lying on the side of him in pieces. “Oh my god!” I whispered as tears fell from my eyes. The man that I saw blow someone’s face off, was NOT the same man I was set to spend the rest of my life with. The man I was to marry was a successful businessman. The man I saw tonight, was not my fiancé. That man was a killer. And I, Langston Giselle Graham Esquire, was a witness.

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FINAL SNEAK PEEK - A BREWING STORM

Hey, beauty. Tomorrow, Wynta Tyme returns with A Brewing Storm: The Awakening and we have a look inside for you before it goes live!

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“I’m serious Dreya,” she stated in a no-nonsense voice.

“I’m for real I got it,” I repeated.

“Alright, I'm going to hold you to your word,” she stated.  I nodded and smiled.

“You’re right, bf.  I should have been told them.  Especially since everything seems to revolve around him.”  We both looked in Tayo’s direction. It’s like he could sense I was looking at him because he looked up from his clipboard and glanced around the arena until our eyes met.  He stared into my eyes intensely as another hot flash washed over me. Instantly my skin was sweating and boiling hot. The more I stared at him, I noticed the perspiration on his forehead as his amber eyes displayed fire flames.  I could sense my Phoenix squirming to be let free and soar to him. I held onto my seat tightly as I rocked back and forth. The overwhelming feeling to fly into his arms took over. I immediately jumped to my feet to let my wings loose.

“Ice cave,” Ryelle spoke low but loud enough for me to hear.  Immediately my surroundings changed, and I was standing in the freezing cold ice cave. 

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FINAL SNEAK PEEK - LOVE 101

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Osiris McFee

Makena was fixing herself a small plate of salad. She bypassed the smoked brisket, ribs, ribeye, baked potatoes, corn on the cob, rolls, and green beans. If I thought about it, I barely saw her eat anything that wasn’t a salad all week. It wasn’t my business though. I wasn’t going to pry and get my head bitten off. My stomach growled so I decided to fix myself a plate and trail her to an empty table.

She sat down and looked at me sit across from her. “We are not doing this today.”

“Not doing what? Eating? I’m hungry and this is the only empty table and the collective thinks that we should get on neutral ground.”

She squinted at me before saying, “I honestly don’t give a fuck what the collective thinks. It’s already been made apparent to me that if I want anything done or if I want to have a voice anywhere on campus, I should be a man. So, there’s that. There’s the neutral ground. Can you leave now?”

I smirked and shook my head no. “Nah, I’m going to sit here and eat my food. If you want to leave and cause yet another scene please be my guest.”

She rolled her eyes and took a bite of her lettuce. That’s all it was there nothing else on her plate but rabbit food.

“You came to a cookout to eat salad?”

She didn’t bother looking at me. “It’s a picnic and I did.”

“Translation bougie ass cookout. You not hungry?”

“I won’t be in ten minutes when this is gone,” she replied. “Anything else?”

“Nope. Live your life.”

I inhaled sharply before digging into my food. “You need an attitude adjustment, you know that? Your man needs to get on his job.” She sucked her teeth like she was born and raised in the West Indies. “Don’t have a man, do you?”

“What does that have anything to do with anything?”

“A lot.”

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FINAL SNEAK PEEK - YOU'LL NEVER LOVE ME

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“I’m pregnant.”

His face softened, eyes widened as he matched my stare. When I didn’t say anything else, letting it be known I was serious, he nodded his head up and down. His arm that was draped over my shoulder was drawn back so he could use his hand to massage his chin.

“For real?”

“For real.”

“That’s cool. Congratulations, I guess.” 

It was now me looking confused. Out of anything he could’ve possibly said or asked, he chose congratulations? Was he really that shocked? The more I looked at him, and watched his hand run down his face, I realized the comment was a result of us not being on the same page. 

“It’s your baby, Marcus. You do know that. Right?”

“Psh.”

I frowned from what I knew to be his denial. I didn’t know what the hell to expect but it certainly wasn’t this. 

“I’m serious. You’re the only man I’ve been with like that and you know we didn’t use a condom that last time.” 

“Yeah, alright. I haven’t even touched you in…”

“Eleven weeks, five days. Do the math.”

He exhaled deeply. With the lines forming in his forehead, I knew he was doing as he was told. I reached into my phone case, retrieving one of the sonogram photos so he could look at it. He not only swatted my hand away, he stood to his feet, leaving me to sit alone. I sat the photo on his coffee table and approached him. 

“I know we didn’t really plan for this, but…”

“You’re right. We didn’t. So what are you about to do about it because I’m still not convinced it’s even mine.” 

“What?”

“How do I know you’re not lying? You tell me you feeling me, we don’t talk for a while and you just show up pregnant like I’m supposed to believe that shit. I mean, you gave that shit up in the front seat of my car. How do I know I’m the only dude you…”

Before he could even get the rest of the sentence out, my hand went across his face with such force it sent his head flying back. I shouldn’t have put my hands on him, and I probably should’ve apologized but I wasn’t giving him one. It’s one thing to deny the baby but it was another for him to try insulting me like I sold him my ass off the street corner. 

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FINAL SNEAK PEEK - LOVE'S SWEET SERENADE

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“Take your bra off.”

She reached for the clasp in the front, between her breasts, and they sprang free. I leaned forward and pushed the straps from her shoulders, easing them down her arms. Then she lifted up a bit, allowing me to pull the bra from underneath her and toss it to the floor.

“Take your panties off.”

Bending her knees and planting her feet on the bed, she pushed her thumbs through the sides of her burgundy underwear and slid them down her body. When they fell to her ankles, I took them the rest of the way off, and pulled her closer to the edge of the bed, to where her ass was almost hanging off.

“Close your eyes.”

Once again, she did as she was told. Lowering myself to my knees, I rested her thighs on my shoulders and wrapped my arms around them. Without further delay, my face disappeared between her milk chocolate thighs, the place I now call my own little piece of heaven. As soon as my tongue slipped between her folds, she moaned in ecstasy…

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FINAL SNEAK PEEK - WHATEVER IT TAKES

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I quickly filled her to the hilt, hitting that pussy with power. She screamed out as I plowed into her repeatedly. “So, you gon’ apologize or what?”

“Apologize… shit! Apologize for what…? Fuck!”

“For thinking that you would ignore me and get away with it. I need an apology for you treating me like a random, ordinary nigga. That ain’t who I am, and you know that shit. Don’t let this accounting job fool you, Mesh.”

She didn’t respond to what I said, only to what I was doing to her. Her pants and screams were bouncing off the walls, threatening to end our session prematurely. Pulling out of her, I grabbed her arm and brought her to her bar stool. After sitting her on it, I pulled her tights all the way off and lifted her legs high. Her eyes widened somewhat as I filled her once again. I didn’t know why she thought I was playing with her. When I got through with her, she was gon’ wanna go straight to sleep.

She slumped some and I commenced to fucking her box like it would be my last time while the tears fell from her eyes. That caused me to slow down some. I’d never really seen Mesh cry. She shed a couple of tears before she left, but nothing like the tears that were raining down her cheeks now. Releasing her legs and allowing my now flaccid dick to slide out of her, I pulled her up by her arms. Standing between her legs, I cupped her cheeks with my hands, gently wiping her tears with my thumbs.

I stared at her face as she closed her eyes, then wrapped her arms around my neck. I closed my eyes as well. She was ruling the way that I moved and didn’t even know that shit, but I wanted to show her how deep love could be, just like Sade sang about in “Cherish the Day.” I didn’t know any other way to show her but to be forceful. If I wasn’t, she would try to run shit, as usual. Then I would be sitting at home struggling to breathe without her. “Mesh, look at me.”

She slowly released her grip on me and sat up straight on the stool, staring into my eyes. “What’s the matter?”

“I… I don’t wanna…”

She broke down and that killed me inside. I pulled my drawers and sweats up, then scooped her up from the stool, cradling her in my arms and walked to her couch. As I sat, she rested her head on my shoulder. I kissed her forehead and gently rubbed her back, holding her close. My mind was everywhere, not knowing what was going on with her. Finally, she sat up and stared into my eyes. “I don’t wanna lose you, Chance.”

“Then don’t. I refuse to let you leave me, girl.”

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FINAL SNEAK PEEK - EVERYTHING I DESIRE

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Arabella

A quiet whimper slipped between my lips as Nathan ripped my panties from my body. He had this thing about me being at the condo whenever he popped up. His job called for him to travel days at a time throughout the week. Whenever he had a free day, he popped up on me. If I wasn’t home, he’d have a fit. I told myself it was because he craved me and wanted me when he wanted me because that sounded a hell of a lot better than he was a possessive control freak who liked to direct my every move. 

In which case, I could understand why he asked. It was September, and instead of me teaching my Drama class at Miller-Green High School, I was sulking and trying to find ways to pass time because my class had been cut. For the past two years I thrived on teaching theater because I honestly felt like that was as close as I’d get to my dream of being an actress. Out of nowhere, the president of the board called for a meeting this summer letting me and three other teachers know that the classes we taught would no longer be offered. 

I guess that was also another reason why I continued to date Nathan. With me temporarily not working, I appreciated the fact that he was paying my bills. Before losing my job, I’d managed to save enough money to pay bills for six months, so I was good for the time being. Now, I had to decide if I was going to teach a different class here, move somewhere else, or take this as a sign from God to finally pursue my acting career again. 

Since I started teaching, I hadn’t been able to be as dedicated to my acting career. My schedule consisted of school Monday through Friday, and on the weekends, I wanted to let my hair down and enjoy myself.

And the thought of working in a different field wasn’t even on the table. It was either acting or teaching theater. Period. 

“Bella…”

His voice was strained, as if he was tired of waiting for me to provide an answer. 

“…Hmm?”

“I asked, where were you?”

Yes, he did, as he pressed his dick into my stomach. Closing my eyes, I inhaled a deep breath and tried to focus on the conversation at hand. 

“I went up to the school during lunch to chat with a few teachers and students. Why didn’t you tell me you were coming?”

My eyes opened, focusing on his. “I thought we agreed you wouldn’t rush your decision. Does this mean you’re going back to school to teach something else?”

Nathan’s grip around my neck loosened. He put some space between us. His detachment alarmed me. It was cool being a kept woman, but this wasn’t something I wanted to make a habit of. I needed to feel fulfilled. Like I was doing something that mattered to the world. Waiting around for him in this condo wasn’t it. 

“Well…” My voice was as soft and innocent as I could make it. The last thing I wanted to do was make this visit one that was filled with tension. My pussy was wet, my walls were waiting, and I was ten seconds away from demanding that I feel his dick deep in my throat. “They need someone to teach a freshman English class. It’s not what I want to do, but I have my bachelors in English so I could…”

Nathan’s head shook as he put space between us. “You’re setting yourself up for failure, Bella. If you do that, they will devalue you. You have to position yourself to be unfireable. If they know that they can toss you around to do anything, you’ll never secure the class for yourself and other teachers. If this is something that you truly believe the school needs, you have to make them see the value of it. Of you. Don’t teach that class.”

A soft smirk played against the edges of my mouth as I lifted myself off the wall and walked over to him. Closing the space between us, I stood on the tips of my toes and tilted my head back. Nathan was too tall for me to be able to kiss him on my own, so he lowered himself to connect his lips with mine. 

His hands wrapped around my thighs, and Nathan lifted me into the air. My legs circled around his waist as he carried me the few steps it took to get to the patio. A full smile spread, making it a bit harder for me to kiss him fully. I loved when Nathan made love to me outside. We’d never actually gone to the beach and done it, but just hearing the crashing waves on the patio syncing with our bodies connecting, breathing laboring, and moans harmonizing always did something to me.

Nathan placed me on my feet, and I tiptoed backwards until I reached the corner of the railing. My eyes lowered to the center of him, and I watched as he unbuckled his slacks…

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FINAL SNEAK PEEK - TAINTED FRUIT 2

Hey, beloved. Tomorrow, Courtney Irving returns with Tainted Fruit 2. Here’s one final look before it goes live.

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“Does anyone come to mind who you think would want to harm your sister? A jealous boyfriend? An ex who might not be happy with how they ended? A co-worker? Jealous friend?” 

“No one comes to mind,” I lied with a straight face. “Thuy has always kept to herself outside of her poetry that she performs in small clubs every now and then. She's never had a boyfriend or many friends and is a private person.”  

“What does your sister do as far as concerning work?” he asked. “Maybe I can ask her boss or her co-workers a few questions. With cases like these, we always find that victims are not always honest with their family as their families think they are. Thuy could have left out a few details. Maybe she was seeing someone, but didn’t tell you.”  

“Thuy doesn’t work, she goes to school, and she just barely started.”  

“Anyone I can talk to at her school that she hangs with?”  

“Like I said, she just started and only got to go to maybe two classes before this. There isn’t anything that I know that would give you any assistance, detective. Me and my family are just as lost and confused as to why this would happen to her of all people.”  

“Thank you for your time again, Ms. Campbell,” he said with a smile. “Please if you think of anything else that might help, please do not hesitate to call me. Here is my card with all my information. Don't be afraid to reach out to me,” I nodded as his smile stretched back a little further. “I’m going to do everything in my power to find out who did this to your sister and give her the justice she deserves.”  

The way he said it was so much assurance, like he believed it. I wanted to do the same. Wanted to believe that the justice system would out all the men and that Italian crime family who used my sister and tried to kill her, in prison.  

But I knew the truth. The harsh and bitter truth.  

Black men. Black women. Black people. Brown girls and boys. We didn’t matter to the world of police, nor were we ever deemed a priority. They saw us but chose to ignore us. Our faces. Our pain, mattered nothing to them.  

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FINAL SNEAK PEEK - WHEN IT'S THE STREETS VS. MY HEART

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Crimson

My eyes shifted to the door the moment it was pushed open. Smoke slowly seeped from my lips as my shooters stood in front of the desk that I sat behind. 

“It’s done.”

I didn’t physically respond but mentally, that was the best news I’d heard in a while. Territory, or the possession of such a thing, was mandatory at this point in the game. 

“They aren’t dead, are they?” That question was rhetorical because I knew that they did the job that I assigned to them. I didn’t want Solace and Doom dead, I just wanted to scare them enough so that when I moved, they didn’t challenge me. 

Horn shook his head. “We didn’t actually see Doom go down, just Solace.”

Solace was the head man so him going down was enough for me. “But not dead right?”

“He was responsive when the ambulance placed him on the stretcher.” Cross supplied.

I looked between the two of them. “But you don’t know if he’s dead?”

“Brimm told us that he was getting into position to make sure he wasn’t.”

Brimm was my right-hand man, the man accountable for pulling me into this drug shit to begin with. Unlike most people in my position, I wasn’t born and raised by the streets. I was a white-collar brother, college educated and working in a field that most would consider too lucrative to jeopardize to get into some street shit that I knew nothing about. Never in a million years did I see myself becoming the person that I am today. But it was too late for me at this point, I was already too deep in to pull myself back now. My ties into Brimm’s operation were deep, I was his partner in every sense of the word. After months of building on the foundation that we created, we were ready to move. Normally, anyone that was needing space in Dallas, would have to go through Solace and Doom, but Brimm let me know that he wanted to make a statement that would resound across anyone that was involved with this game we were playing. What we planned was a simple attack that wasn’t supposed to result in any death or life altering scenarios. Our shooters were trained to make bullets hit the target that they were meant for and nothing else. The goal was to make sure Solace and Doom knew that they weren’t untouchable. For years, they had been moving through the streets with not so much as a challenge coming their way. It wasn’t because they weren’t in the streets- they moved however they wanted to move- it was because they had earned a name for themselves, a name that people didn’t challenge. Brimm was bold. Stupidly so. He was the face, the man in the forefront. I was just his right hand, in the shadows working through the financial end of things. Now, we had created a war with Solace and Doom.

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FINAL SNEAK PEEK - SCARED OF BEAUTIFUL

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Kiari

“You can’t be serious.” I picked my phone up for the third time tonight and each time I’m still in disbelief at the fact that I’ve been sitting at this restaurant for the past ten minutes and my date had yet to show up. Hell, he hadn’t even sent a text.

Fed up, I reached beside me to grab my bag and stood. I was almost out the door when my date Malcolm came strolling in like he had no care in the world. I knew I should have just eaten at Deanos. Malcolm approached me and reached out to grab my hand.

“Kiari, it’s like that?” He had the nerve to ask.

“You do realize you’re over ten minutes late.”
“I know, and I apologize it wasn’t intentional. If you could give me a second chance, I would love to spend some time with you.” This time when he reached out to grab my hand, I allowed him.

His handsome face held a breathtaking smile with his dimples on full display. For that alone I went against my better judgment and allowed him to guide me back to the table I was recently occupying. Malcolm pulled out my chair and allowed me to sit down before he pushed me back in and rounded the table to take a seat.

We sat and looked at the menu occasionally stealing glances at each other before the waitress came over. When her eyes landed on Malcolm though, she paused, but not long before she recovered and gave me her attention. Red flag number one.

 “Good evening, what can I start you guys off with to drink?”

“I’ll have a strawberry lemonade,” I told her to which she nodded her head and smiled.

“And for you?” she asked directing her energy towards Malcolm.

Her presence didn’t bother him one bit, he looked over the menu like her presence didn’t matter and ordered a rum and coke with a glass of water. Once she jotted down his drink, she walked away to prepare the drinks. Part of me wanted to address Malcolm about the girl, but I figured in due time he would show his hands and when he did, I just hoped it was after I got my meal. A bitch was hungry.

“So, how was your day today?” I asked Malcolm.

“It was smooth, you know, nothing major.”

“Nothing major? Well, what did you do?”

“Chilled with my niggas, made a couple moves.”

Strike two. Ain’t nothing less attractive than a man who couldn’t hold an intelligent conversation. Instead of asking another question I sat back and observed my surroundings secretly thinking about how I fucked up with an idiot once again. Thank God, the waitress was on her way back with our drinks. Again there was an awkward exchange from her, which he ignored once again.

“Are you guys ready to order?”

“Yea I’ll…”

“She’ll have a cobb salad with light ranch dressing, and I’ll have the ribeye with a baked potato and steamed broccoli.” Both the waitress and myself looked at Malcolm like he had lost his mind.

“Excuse me, I can order for myself. Scratch what he said, I’ll have the cajun chicken and shrimp penne pasta with an extra breadstick.”

“I never said you couldn’t order for yourself, but when you’re with me I’ll be doing the ordering. I already allowed you to get the strawberry lemonade which is full of sugar, there’s no way I’m going to allow you to get pasta that’s full of fats and carbs.”

Strike three, he’s out.

“Malcolm I’m just going to chalk your comment up to you not knowing any better. What you need to understand and comprehend is that you don’t have the power to allow me to do anything. Last time I checked I didn’t come from your nut sack, which means you ain’t my daddy. Even if by some odd chance you were, he was an ain’t shit nigga, so again, you have no authority.”

“Watch your mouth, Kiari.”

“Lord, let me get my shit. This is what I get for not listening to my first instinct when it told me to leave after you were ten minutes late,” I ranted as I grabbed my belongings. “Oh, and baby girl, I don’t know what y’all got going on, but the fact that he sat in your face with another female and ignored your presence speaks volumes. You’re way too beautiful to be putting up with this bullshit.” I glanced over at Malcolm who looked like he was minutes from exploding before I rolled my eyes and made my exit.

As soon as I got in my car I immediately clicked on his contact, blocked, and deleted him. See, this is what I get for going against my one rule by trying to date a client. Malcolm came into the shop maybe a week or two ago to get a chest tattoo of his native country’s flag with claw marks ripping through his chest to reveal it.

All I saw was beautiful milk chocolate skin with a breathtaking smile. At first, I wasn’t paying his advances any mind, but somehow within the session he weaseled my number out of me. We had been talking on and off since then and tonight was supposed to be our first date.  A straight shit show, is what it was.

I pulled up to my house thirty minutes later after I stopped at Sonic and got me a cheeseburger, tater tots, and a nerd slushie. Since there was no way I could eat without taking a shower first, I placed my bag in the warmer I purchased for reasons like this and headed straight for the shower with my slushie in hand.

By the time I was finished with my shower I barely wanted to do anything besides sleep, but other than those fries from earlier and the small breakfast this morning I hadn’t ate anything else. So I headed back to the kitchen, grabbed my food, a bottle of water, and got situated on the couch.

I turned the t.v to “Live PD” and got comfortable. By the time I finished my dinner, I only had enough energy to grab a blanket from the basket beside the couch and lay back down. My eyes were heavy yet I couldn’t fall asleep for some reason.

After five minutes of trying I reached over on the coffee table and grabbed my phone. Going to my favorite guilty pleasure I brought my Instagram up and hit the explore page. The first thing I laid eyes on was none other than Marco’s sexy ass. I tried to get Kwame to hook me up with him, but he claimed I would mess up his money.

Granted I hadn’t had the best track record, but I also hadn’t had anyone worth behaving for. I mean we all saw what happened tonight. I learned a long time ago how to play the game and not let the game play you, and until the men that try to enter my life change, I don’t plan on changing. Well, that is unless that man was Marco.

At this point I was scrolling through his page being nosy trying to see if he had a girl. I was so deep in his page I didn’t notice I was back in 2018 until my damn thumb accidentally double tapped his picture.

“Ahh!” Quickly unliking the picture, I clicked out of the app and tossed my phone back onto the table. “This cannot be life!” I’m taking my ass to sleep.

Flopping back onto the couch, I threw the cover over my head. I tossed and turned until I got comfortable, and when I did, my mind was still consumed with Marco. See, that’s what I get for minding business that don’t even pay me.

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FINAL SNEAK PEEK - LEAVE ME LONELY

Tomorrow, ASH LEY returns with Leave Me Lonely, and we have a sneak peek for you!

I wrapped my arms around Frederick, waiting for him to do the same. Waiting

for him to tell me everything would be okay like he always would but I got nothing. I wasn’t sure

how long I prayed for things to change, but when it grew pitch black outside, pouring down rain,

I knew it had to have been an hour if not longer. Funny, because I didn’t recall the forecast even

mentioning rain, but I heard it loudly beating against the windows and doors as the occasional

bolt of lightning flashed, providing a bit of light to an otherwise completely dark house.

I was praying, like never before, for a change, but when it didn’t happen, I had no choice

but to face my ugly reality. I’d just lost the man I planned on spending the rest of eternity with

along with an ex husband who did me more harm than good. I had no strength left. No energy.

All I had was breath in my body but I no longer wanted it. I crawled towards Fabian, retrieving

the gun out of his cold, lifeless hand. I then mimicked his last gesture, held towards my head and

pulled the trigger. 

Click!

Click!

Click!

I screamed out, flinging the weapon into the wall realizing there wasn’t another bullet in

the chamber. I couldn’t understand why God was being so cruel. Why he insisted that I was left

to dwell and deal with this type of hurt. It was torture and I couldn’t imagine living the rest of

my life with this sort of pain, let alone another second. It’s the reason I stood to my feet and

entered the kitchen, bumping into boxes and furniture in the process. I felt around the

countertops, looking for the knife holder.

Once I located it, I was grabbing the largest knife I could and took it from one side of my

wrist to the other. Blood poured from the open slit, decorating the tile flooring. One minute

passed and then another, yet I was still alive. Figuring that God was giving me the time to call

someone and tell them about what I’d done, I tried walking, only to grow woozy. Before I

realized it, I was on the ground. I crawled my way back towards Fabian; Towards Frederick and

rested my head on his chest. I dug inside of his pocket, retrieving his cell phone. To my surprise

it was vibrating away. It was his mom, saving me the trouble of having to call out to 911 myself.

“Hello? Hello?!” She asked. 

“I- We need an ambulance.” I whispered. 

The phone fell from my hand as my body grew weak. Still, I sat myself up so that I could get one

final look at him. At the love of my life. This one and the next.

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